Since my body constantly goes more and more down (currently mainly through my physical diseases), asked me my psychologist today, if I’m afraid to die…
I answer her always very honest…she is my psychologist for about 10 years now, she knows me very well and I can’t fool her anyway 😁
So…am I afraid to die soon of my diseases?
I have immediately said no.
Honestly, I’m not afraid to die!
But I don’t want to kill myself, I don’t want to take an overdose or something like that…I am absolutely not suicidal.
But I’m so terribly tired of my diseases 😥
I am so exhausted and my strength to fight is just disappeared, there is nothing more left…nothing at all!
So I have no fear of dying.
I would have no objection, would it be over soon…but I will not influence it by myself.
And when my time to die is come, I would (thankful) want to go.
It’s good, that I can talk to her about my feelings and thoughts.
And although she can’t do anything, that I feel better…but she can help me through what once was my life and now only is a daily struggle to survive 😔